TeAdYbEaR2o2's Xanga

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 00:51:23 GMT

well... life is slow.... im bored... n there really isnt much else to it. lol
found a boy... hes staying in Colombia for the summer...
found another boy... dont know if hes interested...
now im confused who i want to date...
life is confuzing...
good night
<333

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Tue, 10 May 2005 18:26:37 GMT

well.... i saw my dad for the first time in 3 1/2 years, my four legged best frioend died (my doggy lucas), aaaand.... i have no string friend afiliatoins @ school (aka loner)

one of the ppl i thought was my bestfriend.... is a bitch....(stabbed me ion the back for the 3rd time this year alone).... aaaaaand....yeah! life sucks..... cept i think i am going out to NJ to be with my dad for a couple weeks. which should rock.

aaaaaand... i realized only one boy has ever really treat me right... and i lost him...to my own stupidity...

rock out...

Monday, March 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 18:27:41 GMT

holy fucking shit i havent posted here in a loooong ass time!!! hahaha.... well.... wow... go to my myspace!!!

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/9645481

if youi dont have one... get one... they are SOOO much better than xanga!!!

easier to!!! lol

well.... thats all for like hte next six months!!! lol IM me if u like: XemoamoreX

tata!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 20:31:12 GMT

cause im back in black!!!! lol i am loser... lol but thats ok y'all love me anyway. 'specialy if u rea this... bc i mean NO ONE reads these ne more... myspace has taken over!!! lol but yeah... life is good.!!!! jus thoguht i would let you know!!!

God Bless!!!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 01:11:36 GMT

1. WHATS ON YOUR MIND NOW? love, happiness, and this guy

2. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? nohing but my typing

3. COMPLETE THIS SENTENCE: THE WORLD NEEDS...to realize the true meaning of the word love

4. MODEL OF YOUR CELLPHONE? t720

5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? crunch choco bell thing

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? hmm.... black, hott pink, or red... i dont know...

7. WHAT DO YOU DO DURING YOUR CHILL TIME? mess around online, draw, write, play my guitar, dream, ect

8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Dino's dad lol

9. THE FIRST THING YOU THINK ABOUT WHEN YOU SEE THE OPPOSITE SEX? eyes...then smile

10. AUTO OR MANUAL CAR? prefer auto, have manual

11. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? Valentines

12. FAVORITE PLACE? my room

13. FAVORITE SPORTS? i dont play, but i liek to watch soccer, vollyball, and football, and iceskating too

14. DO U WEAR CONTACTS? nope

15. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? half sisters; i have no idea

16. THE COOLEST WAY YOU HAVE TO RELEASE PRESSURE? draw, hot shower, hot chocolate, sleep... oh yeah, lol

17. THINGS I HATE MOST? lying... and.... anything pertaining to that

18. WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT BEING A GIRL? the make up, girl talk, being so complex we confuze our selves... lol

19. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY? HaPpY!!!

20. MY BEST FRIEND IS: Ashley, Julie, and Mike

21. CHOCOLATES OR FLOWERS? Chocolate!!!

22. WHEN IM STUCK IN A JAM.. uuuuuh...?

23. Text OR Call..? CALL

24. IF YOU COULD TURN BACK TIME, YOU WOULD...? be a better gf to this one guy... and try to fix what tore us appart

25. IN YOUR WALLET, YOU HAVE...? a norton simon art museum card, a mini calendar (i didnt kno i had that... lol)a pis of my dad, becca's 8h grade ID card, $20 barns & noble gift card, $15 american eagle card, my star info from international star registery, $10 bluckbuster gift card, jambajuice card $?, starbucks card; around $8or9 sumn, $15 hottopic card, and like 5 hottopic stamp cards, my Id card, a pic of ashley, and a business card for a salon in beverley hills

26. WHAT'S ON YOUR SCREEN SAVER? pipes

27. FAVORITE BOARD GAME/s? monopoly

28. FAVORITE SMELLS? axe, and black rose

29. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU THINK OF BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP? *soft smile.... i think we all know its not a what but a who

30. THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT....? Bible, God, friends, mom

31. YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? "That was a memorable day to me, for it made great changes in me. But its the same with any life. Imagine one select day struck out of it, and think of how different its course would have been. Pause you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link on one memorable day." -Charles Dickens, 'Great Expectations'

Friday, December 24, 2004

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 23:37:31 GMT

What is your name? MaRiN
Are you named after anyone? kid my mom baby sat wen she was 13
What's your screename? SeXxY ItaliaN3 and XemoamoreX
Would you name a child of yours after you? noooooo
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be? Ashley or Vianne
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? Ashley
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly? rrrr.... u have NOO idea...(pronunciation) Maryin, martin, maren, mareen, ect... it goes on and on
Would you drop your last name if you became famous? no... its all i have left of my dad
Basics
Your gender: FeMaLe
Straight/Gay/Bi: StRaIgHt
Single? unfortunately
If not, do you want to be? AW HEEEELL NO!!!
Birthdate: 2-17-89
Your age: 15
Age you act: depends on my mood... i act older wen i am serious.. and younger wen im in a very playful mood
Age you wish you were: 18
Your height: 5'1"
Eye color: hazleish brown weird green i dont know...
Happy with it? no
Hair color: light brown
Happy with it? i want blond and black and red highlights but other than that... lol
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: righty
Your living arrangement: mom, and 2 dogs
Your family: dysfunctional
Have any pets? 2 HUGE dogs... my male, lucas aquired the name kudgo (iono how to spell it) but it was a demon possed dog in a move
Whats your job? i WAS a tutor for Karen... rrrr
Piercings? 2 in each ear
Tattoos? not yet
Obsessions? music, this guy, art
Addictions? (see above)
Do you speak another language? lil soanish and an italian word here and there
Have a favorite quote? "That was a memorable day to me, for it made great changes in me. But its the same with any life. Imagine one select day struck out of it, and think of how different its course would have been. Pause you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link on one memorable day." -Charles Dickens, 'Great Expectations'
Do you have a webpage? 1 myspace, 3 Xanga
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment? sometimes
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? faaaaaaar too much so
Do you have any secrets? kinda
Do you hate yourself? not so much anymore
Do you like your handwriting? sooome times
Do you have any bad habits? yeah... lol
What is the compliment you get from most people? i <3 your eyes
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? The Not So Beaten Road
What's your biggest fear? loosing the ppl i loove
Can you sing? to the radio!!
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? no... like me for who i am, or dont like me @ all
Are you a loner? only wne i want to be... or wen my friends ignor me... lol
What are your .1 priorities in life? i dont know... something with love
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? id liek to think so
Are you a daredevil? only with expressing feelings... something new for me... but if u dont tell them... they'll never know... and you'll never have a chance
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? yes, my weight,and addiction
Are you passive or agressive? somewhere in between... but it also depends on my mood
Do you have a journal? on line
What is your greatest strength and weakness? strength: drawing weekness: self confidence
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? weight
Do you think you are emotionally strong? yes
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? EVERYTHING happens for a reason
What do you like the most about your body? eyes? do they count?
And least? everything else
Do you think you are good looking? not at all
Are you confident? only wen it comes to drawing, and even then... but somwone is helping me with that problem
What is the fictional character you are most like? i have no idea
Are you perceived wrongly? yes.. bc of the way i dress
Do You...
Smoke? NO... NEVER... it is killing my father... it is SUCH a waste of life... i HATE it... HATE...
Do drugs? NO (read above)
Read the newspaper? too lazy
Pray? yes
Go to church? no :'(
Talk to strangers who IM you? yeah, a lil bit
Sleep with stuffed animals? every night!!! (BearBear!!)
Take walks in the rain? yes... i LOVE the rain... it is SO inspiring.. and idk... i jus love it....
Talk to people even though you hate them? i dont hate anyone... so that doesnt apply
Drive? no
Like to drive fast? yes!!
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice? talking yeah... now and then i have a southern accent and i liek that.
Hurt yourself?
Been out of the country? no :(
Eaten something that made other people sick? no? lol
Been in love? if not.. then as close as possible
Done drugs? NO
Gone skinny dipping? uh... no
Had a medical emergency? nope
Had surgery? does having teeth pulle count? lol
Ran away from home? almost
Played strip poker? no
Gotten beaten up? only verbaly... and wait... yes
Beaten someone up? only in a play fight
Been picked on? yes
Been on stage? yes, strings
Slept outdoors? yes
Thought about suicide?
Pulled an all nighter? yes
If yes, what is your record? till 5am ish then slept till 8
Gone one day without food? uuh... yeah
Talked on the phone all night? 11pm-5am
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? kinda
Slept all day?no, only till 1ish
Killed someone? NeVeR
Made out with a stranger? nope
Had sex with a stranger? nope, VIRGIN thank you
Thought you're going crazy? many times
Kissed the same sex? yeah, couple times but only as a dare... and once as an accident lol
Done anything sexual with the same sex? no
Been betrayed? yes, FAR too many times
Had a dream that came true? all the time
Broken the law? ... uh... im not sure... lol
Met a famous person? saw, yes, talked to, no
Have you ever killed an animal by accident? NOOOO
On purpose? yes, a bug
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? nope
Stolen anything? No
Been on radio/tv? no
Been in a mosh-pit? only in my living room.
Had a nervous breakdown? all the time
Bungee jumped? no!!!!!! too scared
Had a dream that kept coming back? yes
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets? nope
Miracles? yes.
Astrology? no
Magic? illusion yes
God? HELL YES
Satan? how can u not
Santa? nope!
Ghosts? no, but the idea scares me
Luck? everything happens for a reason
Love at first sight? infatuation, yes, true lasting love, i doubt it
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)? yes
Witches? yes, and no
Easter bunny? nope, never did
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? no
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? no
Do you wish on stars? yes, they are kinda like silent prayers
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? depends,.... what r they... ?
Do you think God has a gender? i dont know...
Do you believe in organized religion? yes
Where do you think we go when we die? judgement and then heaven
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? yes, well more bi than nething
Who is your best friend? i have a few (Ashley, Julie, Mike, Becca...)
Who's the one person that knows most about you? Ashley and Julie
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? be pacient... everything will work out
Your favourite inside joke? tooo many to list
Thing you're picked on most about? if you saw me, you could guess immidately, my weight
Who's your longest known friend? Ashely
Newest? Drew
Shyest? um... Holly
Funniest? ashley, julie
Sweetest? Ahsley and Julie
Closest? Ashley and Julie
Weirdest? Julie... lol i<3u
Smartest? Dino or Jeff L
Ditziest? Julie...
Friends you miss being close to the most? Becca
Last person you talked to online? Scoot
Who do you talk to most online? Scoot, Julie, and Dino
Who are you on the phone with most? Julie... or... idk... who ever i was dating @ that time
Who do you trust most? Ashley, Julie, and Mike
Who listens to your problems? Ashley, Julie, and Mike
Who do you fight most with? hahaha... Daniel
Who's the nicest? Ashley, Julie and Mike
Who's the most outgoing? Ashleyby far
Who's the best singer? Ashley and Alissa
Who's your second family? Ashley and Becca
Do you always feel understood? by certain ppl yes
Who's the loudest friend? Ashley
Do you trust others easily? too easily
Who's house were you last at? besides mine... Laura Jean's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Ashley and Julie
Do your friends know you? yes, i cant hide
Friend that lives farthest away: Jake, Conneticut
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake? no
What do you find romantic? alot of things... depends on the person tho... but i can give u the name of a guy who has it all down pat
Turn-on? kissing my neck, nipping my lower lip... and hand positioning... lol
Turn-off? conceit, and bad breath
First kiss? movie theater nov 28 03, city walk, hauted mansion
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel? bad for them...
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out? yes, but it never works out that way for me
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out yeah... but i liek it wen guys ask me out...
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? um... kinda
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? they say they do...
What is best about the opposite sex?
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? OH-My-GOSH!!!! dont EVEN get me started!!!!!!
What's the last present someone gave you? um... a guitar
Are you in love? is not, as close as i can be
Do you consider your significant other hot? *hige grin*... u have no idea
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you? Dino
You wanted to kill? myself
That you laughed at? Julie
That laughed at you? Julie
That turned you on? no one in a WHILE... lol
You went shopping with? Ferne
That broke your heart? Dino
To disappoint you? Julie
To ask you out? Drew
To make you cry? Dino
To brighten up your day? Julie!
That you thought about? jessica
You saw a movie with? damn... wen was the lsat time i SAW a movie... the incredibles... i think... with Mike, Jillian, Chris, Cody, Ricky, Sam, Becca i think
You talked to on the phone? uuuh... i dont remember
You talked to through IM/ICQ? Julie
You saw? Laura Jean
You lost? Dino...
Right This Moment...
Are you going out? nope
Will it be with your significant other? i wish i was
Or some random person? no
What are you wearing right now? tight black jeans that are about 8 inches too long, a red FDNY shirt and flame converse
Body part you're touching right now: uh... im not? lol
What are you worried about right now? well being of my friend
What book are you reading? im not
What's on your mousepad? 2 golden retriever puppies
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: wanting, exited, dreamy, lonely, optimistic
Are you bored? not currently
Are you tired? no
Are you talking to anyone online? yea Julie
Are you talking to anyone on the phone? nope
Are you lonely or content? a mix of both
Are you listening to music? yes, Yellowcard

wow... that was long... lol
now u have to do it too!!! lol

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 01:42:26 GMT

hey y'all!!! guess what i did today!!! I SLAMMED MY FINGER IN A CAR DOOR!!! OH YAY!!! *huge fake smile* yeah that was fun... i didnt notice till i tried to move my hand and it wass tuck, i looked at it and i was like "OH! thatss interesting!" *string of cuss words* and the door was such that i had to push on ti to get it open... more ouch... but i couldnt feel my hand... till i got it under cold water and it started to shake uncontrolably. but i iced it for a few hours... then my mama came and picked me up (i was @ Ferne's house) and i got a lil ace thing for it... it helps alto accctualy... but makes typing rather... difficult... lol duh. but anyway... yeah... i hurt.. alot. but!! i didnt cry... not even tear, i was so proud! lol small acomplishment, but hey.

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 19:17:42 GMT

i'll kill him, i swear i will...

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 22:59:06 GMT

weeeeell... my life has improved in some areas.... and... NOT in others...
well... i went on a date with this guy... Jeff, junior @ Burroughs... hes beautiful.... and sweet... ect... lol and gives really nice hugs.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 01:56:09 GMT

i would b much more inclined to write if ppl signed my chatter box... lol or left me comments... lol *HINT!!!!!!* lol

i am happy...

chunkeymonkey714 (7:10:43 PM): lmao u know what i say when ppl say your too young or too old
SeXxXy ItaliaN3 (7:10:51 PM): ?
chunkeymonkey714 (7:10:54 PM): i saw hey its not my fault my parents did it on the wrong night
chunkeymonkey714 (7:10:56 PM): lmao
SeXxXy ItaliaN3 (7:11:34 PM): LMFAO

LMFAO!!! oh wow... lol